A Book Called 'Relationship'

Yesterday i got a book
A book called 'Relationship'
It was hidden, kept in an old box
Dusting the dirt off my shoulder
I took the book gently into my rough hands

First it felt like a feather...gentle and sober
The title was blue italics and underlined
the author was Anonymous and pseudonymous
Disguised like my feelings to handle the book
I thought would be easy and carefree

It started with an I..an I everytime
I searched for the "You"...oh dear where are you?
I kept turning the pages until i find the "Us"
and that changed my complete perception
A belief that may not be so true

There was the story of a boy
who was stuck somewhere, confused and deterred
who feared the consequences of the beautiful smile
the rosy cheeks, blue marble eyes
The struggle of love and despair

A gentle breeze followed the kite
Blue with Yellow Thread Tied so right
The kite was fearful of the stormy winds
The thread was strong and helped the boy
The boy was happy he won the race

Few pages were missing
I thought to complain
But wait,
Who am i to decide the author's fate?
Let him skip some bad realities
Let him add a few beautiful lies

I slept with the book when i was tired
I kept it inside my office bag
I read it every day and night
Cause it's the book called "Relationship"
And i was new to it

I cried that day when i lost the book
it was gone like a bad memory
But i found the missing pages beneath my pillow
They don't make sense to me
Cause i lost the "Relationship" and i can't add the pages anymore
I cant add the pages anymore

I went to the road where i last walked
I searched down the street and coffee shop
I went to the bar and the multiplex
The supermarket and airport lounge
Every single step was like a ring with a broken heart
A diamond with a blunt face
A pen with a slit nib
A mirror with a broken glass

With the burnt pages deep in my heart
I knew somewhere the author will weep
I'll wipe off the tears and mend the soul
I'll fix the nib and fill the ink
I'll make the cover Red Bold and Capitalized
I'll write a book called "Relationship"
And it will not get lost anymore
It will not hurt you and me anymore

It will not hurt you anymore
not me anymore

Con  Amore.

~PS~

Memoire De Toi

Someday..

We both will cross paths again

I will say nothing

All i would like to give is a smile and a final goodbye.

I will never ask you

Never question you

Never give any explanation too

You may want to talk

You might have some rough memories

May be i would like to sit with you for a final lullaby

I will never say anything

Never utter any bad

Never share my memories with a person so untrue

I will honour you

for the happy times

for the riverside, orchid white desires

I will look upto

for the crimson hue, lovers two bleeding blue

I will never die

Never ever try to bother you

Never air my thoughts of me and you

Together, we saw us nowhere

Nether, ever think of you

I promise, i will stand up

to Live not Love, without a clue

I believed in you

and will never do

The path is dry and i can't see you

Didn't call for you

When i was lost

Cause i know, you will be far away with a reason too

Too hard to say

I will cry with you

My eyes are dry like a desert moon

With illusion and deception

like the color blue

Someday..

We both will cross paths again

I will say nothing

I will die with memoire de toi.

~~PS~~

You are my Sol...I am your morning Sky.

I wake up
Like every morning
With you..your thoughts..your never-ending memories
Etched on my mind like a inkblot spread allover the white
Visible yet not real...not at all.

You whisper in my ears
I fail to listen. i just hear.
I roam around seeking your presence
Your odor your substance...invisible.

Your violin.
You make my heart go pound
What a beautiful enchanting sound!
Your fingers when touch the strings
Sprinkles of love and warmth all around.

Your eyes do the talking
My eyes closed and dry.
No place for your tears. How heartless.
You smile and drink away my pain.

A face so bright like an early morning sky
Red big Sol. Fills up my soul.
your cajoling attire makes me swoon.
Totally enthralled in your limited glory.
Limited cause i don't find you anymore.

Wish i could get you back. May be next life.
A life less painful. A life more with you.
I wish i could be the man you desired
A man less painful. A man more with you.

I promise. I will never go away. Please come back.
I promise. I will never run away. Run away with you. Us together.
For we together are complete.
Just like the Sol and the morning sky. No darkness at all.
Just like the eyes and kohl. Not the tears anymore.
Juts like the violin and the fingers. I will listen not hear.

Your promise is my promise.
Your beauty is my pride.
Your honesty is my valor.
Your music is my soul.

I wake up.
Morning is here to stay. No darkness.
Only you and me.
Shining brightly and together.

Let me dream a little.
Let me die some more.
Let me unite with you.
For you are my Sol and i am your morning sky.

~~PS~~

It's NOT at all easy

They Say it's Easy...

Easy to forget your past.

Your past relations

Truth is. It's not

It's not easy to forget your first love.

The time you were 'One' together,

together you wished a world.

A world full of hope and lots of promises

They Say it's Hard...

Hard to believe you broke up

Your union was once liked by all, attended by some and blessed by many.

Now Your present is doubtful

Hated by the two of you. 

You get scared.

Less hopeful. A little less loved.

More bruised then before

A broken heart unwilling to heal

Not Bleeding, Nor Crying...

Not Beating any more..Just Chaos.

You don't believe in fairy-tales now

You started writing nowadays..meaningless writings.

Living behind the doors is your mania, your new found love.

Your fears have occupied your mind

You dont believe and trust anybody now.

But yes

You are a little hopeful

You want to get attention

A little care and a lot of pamper

You want to be free but 

you want to fly with someone

Side by side...until the dusk is set 

The night is lonely and dark with uncertainties

You dont know why.

You know now

You will be loved by no other than just you

You will decide your own life

You will sing your own song

A song full of love yet to be written

Loved by the two of you.

True love is gonna happen now. You Believe.

You open your arms to a new dawn

A sun full of yellow

A yellow full of life

The fire inside you is burning your desire

Hot enough to burn you to ashes

You let it burn and you slowly die

Someday.

Everyday.. 

Love kills and makes you immortal for life

They Say...It's Easy to Die

With your past relations

Truth is.It's not.

It never was.

It never will.

I will miss you till time immemorial

You are alive in my heart

My stories and my poems

My soul. My Desires get wings by your thoughts

They Fly to the horizons to touch you 

And return back to me with your messages

I cry and hide my tears 

From you .

My tears have lost their MEANING now.

I have lost my meaning to you.

Good bye. Forever. 

~~PS~~

Life...

"Life...."

I was walking down the lane one day
With your memories by my side
Suddenly i met a beautiful one
the one with the golden heart
A heart full of light and less of hurt.

That beautiful one had a pretty smile
A smile i could not resist
I asked her where she came from
She replied me smiling
I live in your thoughts
I sleep in your dreams
I laugh in your joys
I cry in your grief
I came from the ocean of your emotions
Quenching your everlasting splendid desires

I run with your fears and rain your way
I walk with your success and make your day
I swim with your tears and tear your fear
I drive with your thoughts, so far so near
Never i felt this way before
Never i had this dilemma
There is something i need to say


There is something i need to say, nay
This feeling is no more now
I learnt this long ago
I never told you this, never thought like telling this
Cause it may hurt your heart

Now i know this life is an illusion
A mirage of sunken dreams
Let us not say something more tonight
Let us not fight again
Let me be myself
and Let this blood go down the lane

Life...
I remember the day 
You were wearing white cotton
Sleeping in the coffin
Full of wet dark red roses and some few dry white ones

I thought to myself
I will never get you back
I lost a Life
Life...is not so easy

Life....
I was walking down the lane one day
With your memories by my side
Suddenly i met a beautiful one
the one with the golden heart
A heart full of light and less of hurt.

"With Love forever"

PS~~~~

There is a fire...Burning all alone

There is a fire within me
That helps me to fight for my existence
There is a thunder
That lights my sky of darkness to a sudden surprise
It usurps me, trembles me, terrifies me
Still it incites me to fight with it for my own existence

I never felt the fear to perish in its angst
My own dilapidated soul is searching for the answers
For the questions that are haunting my pasts
And my future
I wonder where lies the secret testimony
of my ever grandeur and majestic faith

I believe for the theories that never will lie
I believe for the powers that never will die
I believe for the destiny that we will achieve someday
For the moments of happiness that together we believe.

Someday i will rise again, i will shot the fame
I will touch the sky and write my name
on the golden pages of the history of mankind
for once i will be the ruler of my own dreams
my own ambitions and purpose of life

There is a fire...still burning inside me...forever and ever.



~~PS~~